In and out of their lives,  

was I really ever there? 

I taught them to swim and

believe in themselves. 

I came and I went, without fail.

We would meet, and begin

to experience together not alone.

I loved to be underwater, and

thought that I chose. 

I swim as if I only exist there, 

I am strong and have endurance

that sets me free.

people will take it all 

In and out of the lives of people

I learned to give in

What had you done

you know before you came here.

If you were a thief, well leave me

and do not take from the 

experience. Some spaces are sacred.

Some faces are so scared. 

Stuff gets in the way

There is so much to tell,

yet there is too much to say.

We both know we listened to each

other; realistically a long as we

care, and we individually are the

main subject. I listened. Mostly.

I heard what no one else did, I thought

and processed as everyone else did not.

Maybe.

Your thoughts are original and lack

the chains which bind others from

ever getting heard. Their problem.

We were an us and then I said ..

I know the power of words.

I know what I said.

I am so sorry, I want to eat them

I want to beg you back….

What I want doesn’t matter.

Instinct tells me you will wait for me to burn.

The thing that drove me to  

split us like winter wood with an ax

is the important part. It was

unclear and still it is etched in my

soul, It isn’t safe in my life right now.

You know why you instinctively

gave me space, no not sex, the

other voice whispering on the other shoulder

saying you can’t save her.

If you heard that then you heard

it say nor can she save you.

You didn’t run, but you did leave

an empty chair in my room.

Slowly, methodically and who

knows maybe it was good.

I am slower to the epiphanies

of my seemingly fractured sensible

ways as they frey from the friction

caused by slowed moment of

combustion and those sworded words

leave my face.

I am in pain.

I am fighting a war that only I can

change. There are innocent victims and

then there are assholes that knew they would

be hurt and allowed it, they need to be victim.

You do not. I will say, that

everyday I live and breathe,

I will be thinking and you will be in the way. 

I wish I were a nicer person

I wish I had a million dollars

both statements are inadequate

both fall short for reality

I am not a hole

black hole sucking the life right out of

every nice girl I just want to get along

That is after I blow up the sun

Then I would cool off and yes

feel better…

like I can feel better than I do right now

anger is such an intense emotion

it isn’t neat or nice but it is

talentismoreeroticwhenitswasted:

 From Neurons to Networks
The internet has an estimated 100 trillion links,
(1,000,000,000,000)
an adult brain has 300 trillion connections,
(300,000,000,000,000)
A child’s brain has a Quadrillion connections.
(1,000,000,000,000,000)

talentismoreeroticwhenitswasted:

 From Neurons to Networks

The internet has an estimated 100 trillion links,

(1,000,000,000,000)

an adult brain has 300 trillion connections,

(300,000,000,000,000)

A child’s brain has a Quadrillion connections.

(1,000,000,000,000,000)

(Source: talentismoreerotic-whenitswasted)

Speak Up

Someday

I’m gonna say it

It will be mostly a loud whisper

feels like I am screaming

I have to compete with

fusion

The constant bumper car like

dance of chemicals in my brain

I can keep them on tracks

I can even move the tracks

Scientific Facts

You are a complete version of what you seek

you couldn’t fill ten minutes of my need

I don’t want I need to be

talked to like a human being.

I see them in my path. Wild eyes,

they are animals and scared,

fight or flight, staring at me ..

I see them all now,

these days they aren’t scared of me

I guess I am not scary and never

wanted to be

can you hear me?

I can speak up but you have to

tell me what you need.

I will feed them the animals,

they eat, sleep and breed.

How dare they rest in my

presence, how dare they

…. how scared..

are they when all they can

see and hear is me and I am a

body of growing need

nativeamericannews:

Indian Housing Training Conference Focuses on Future Generations
The Native Learning Center, a Seminole Tribe of Florida program dedicated to the development of cultural and quality of life skills for all Native and indigenous people, is pleased to present its Second Annual Indian Housing Training Conference hosted by the Hard Rock Hotel & Casino Tulsa located in Catoosa, Oklahoma, from August 19 to 21, 2014.

nativeamericannews:

Indian Housing Training Conference Focuses on Future Generations


The Native Learning Center, a Seminole Tribe of Florida program dedicated to the development of cultural and quality of life skills for all Native and indigenous people, is pleased to present its Second Annual Indian Housing Training Conference hosted by the Hard Rock Hotel & Casino Tulsa located in Catoosa, Oklahoma, from August 19 to 21, 2014.

(Source: indiancountrytodaymedianetwork.com)